ScaryRoberts' Friends

oh eljay i haven't forgotten you baby
Oh wow its good to be back. Feels like being home again! There's actually too much for me to catch up on since my last post so I'll just write briefly about my life since January 26th of last year. Oh wow. Well shortly after my bday I moved into the international house for the fall semester and it was one of the most memorable and fun times of my life. I partied and drank copiously resulting in all kinds of hilarious embarassing stories, procrastinated on all my assignments, took roadtrips, found the balls to dump Kimbo (my boyfriend of four years at the time), and fell hard for an irish exchange student named Kevin. I really got the proper college experience and I loved every minute of it. So life and school went on quite happily and I even ended going to ireland for the summer to see Kevin, he introduced me to his parents, we traveled around and we had a really great time.

I was back by the middle of august and then slowly life began to turn to crap. Kevin didn't think we'd work long distance, so that was over, my grades from the previous semester were lackluster to say the least, I was up seven pounds, my grandma stopped funding my schooling and my mom was also jobless and not coping well with her divorce. Not to mention that all of this was so much worse because I was sooooooooo sad about Kevin, I really really loved him and all my other friends were making their long distance stuff work so I just felt like the awful reject who had no reason to be rejected. As a result I became a really fabulous looking recluse, I really only talked to maybe 4 people for more than half of the semester I just couldn't get outside of my head. I somehow had it worked out in my mind that all my problems in life could be solved if I were more attractive so I went binge shopping and dieting until I was satisfied with myself. Strangely enough though it did work on some level because being attractive and silent did win me quite a fan club on around town, I got asked out literally everyday which made me feel marginally better and people were really nice to me for no reason but I wasn't any happier with me. Oh one kinda good thing happened, actually. Kimbo came to intern at UC Berkeley for the semester and he had a few crazy exe moments but on a whole it was nice having old big face around, I just dropped him at the airport on the 24th and was actually a little sad to see him go.

Anyway continuing with my story - Then one day I decided to stop being a pathetic facsimile of a shell of a lame human being and be awesome again instead so I went out and got a good job on Santana Row selling jewelry, found an apartment for next semester, started socializing again, starting being my happy self once more, and made a firm resolution to put school first from now on like I used to. Christmas was good, I'm not over Kevin, and on sunday I'm going to vancouver for 5 days to be with my dad on his birthday (new years eve). I'm very very much looking forward to 2010 because I feel like God knows he dropped the ball in 2009 and as compensation he's got something so awesome that its beyond imagination waiting for me somewhere in 2010 and I can't wait to go get it! I'm ludicrously optimistic, I know, but I'm also very lucky and I'm Courtney so that's me. And that's me up to date!! Hope that wasn't too boring.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: how I met your mother season 2

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